domestic abuse

WHAT I HATE THE MOST IS WHEN A MAN CAN TELL YOU HE LOVES YOU AND THE NEXT  MINUTE HE IS BEATING YOUR ASS OR CHEATING ON YOU. I WISH ONE DAY I WILL GROW THE NERVES AND JUST RUN AWAY AND NEVER LOOK BACK. BUT I KNOW THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN BECAUSE I DONT HAVE ANY WHERE TO GO PLUS HE WOULDNT LET ME HAVE MY SON OR ANYTHING ELSE THAT BELONGS TO ME. THE FIRST TIME IT HAPPEN I THOUGHT IT WAS ALL MY FAULT AND DESREVED IT BECAUSE I COULDNT KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT. IT GOT WORSE AFTER THE FIRST YEAR WE WAS TOGETHER. HE WOULD ALWAYS CHEAT ON ME AND MOVE OTHER GIRLS IN AND TELL ME IT WAS ALL MY FAULT BECAUSE I WASNT DOING WHAT I NEED TO DO AS A GIRLFRIEND OR MOTHER SO HE WAS GOING TO FIND SOMEBODY THAT WOULD BUT I WASNT GOING ANY WHERE AND I WAS JUST GOING TO HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT.